Me the man-hater

I hate men. Yes, this had been my life slogan for at least the past four months. Not in a Germaine Greer-ish “What use do we have for these creatures?” sort of way. Quite simply, I had a strong dislike for them. Think of hate in its raw, fundamental form, as in the way you hated sharing your favourite doll in kinder. It’s not complicated but instinctual. After I explain to you the reasoning behind this, perhaps you will see why.

My work as a social worker is, needless to say, tough stuff. At times I am thrown into situations where it feels as if I am the last lifeline this child or that family have at having something right in the world. Of course, with the appropriate debriefing, and the conscious reasoning one makes with oneself after a long week at work, you tell yourself this is far from true. But you can imagine the stress and burden of responsibilities that come with the job.

Now it is far from statistically valid or scientifically reliable research, but I had done some calculating. A lot, and I’d even go so far as to say most of the issues that came to me in the last few months just happened to be directly or indirectly related to some stupid mistake a man made. There was even a whole fortnight where it seemed as if all the fathers, husbands, boyfriends, sons, uncles and ex-boyfriends of my clientele had sat around one weekend in front of the telly and decided just for fun, “Hey fellas! Let’s go out there and create some problems for the people who love and care for us…. BONUS!”

I understand this was a strong call to make. And I’ll even admit I – an unattached female -could have been biased at times as lone research director, experimenter, data collector, and analyst for this project, somewhat skewing any chance of real accuracy. However, I like to think that I am simply sharing the evidence as reported.

Enter my social life. Or rather, the social lives of everyone else around me.

Imagine after a long day of family mediation, calls to emergency accommodation, fighting Centrelink for deserved financial benefits, said single female settles down with a hot cup of tea, her favourite slippers and a well-worn couch. Now imagine one of her best friends on the other side of this couch telling her the man who chickened out after she had already committed to studying, working, living with him overseas had just called begging her to remain in contact with him….as friends, friends who talk to each other every single night.

Replace this best friend, with another girlfriend and push time forward, to say, twenty-four hours. Girlfriend number two, was not short of needing comfort after being told by her newly-wedded husband that he didn’t want to be a father anymore. Great news, considering she is now three months pregnant.

And so this pattern seemed to repeat itself give or take a day or two in between. Some days the setting was a phone conversation in my car. At other times, a café table and four empty coffee cups. The story was the same each time, just swap the characters and choices of beverage; men not thinking properly equalled men doing dumb things.

And this was not the end of it. It seems that once the human picks up on a repeated set of sequences, it’s all it ever perceives! What started out as a curious and insanely entertaining observation grew into some diabolical ugly multiple-headed monster…with bad breath.

You know when you think of a certain car, perhaps one you want to buy for yourself next and you know exactly what it is, down to the number of doors and colour of seats. Then all of a sudden, everyone in freakin’ town has one! You could be out on the freeway, or parking at a shopping centre and there it is, again and again. Another clone of your car innocently making a right turn around the roundabout.

Well it was as if God had turned on a switch, and suddenly half of the human race was running around with their brainpower on the last bullet of battery life.

My own family I worked out, were rife with these organisms. I counted a cousin who was still with her husband who wanted ‘both his women.’ An Aunty who had to find out about a parallel family complete with children, wife and plasma screen. And another cousin trying to escape physical abuse.

The television and papers were no better. Gun shootings and million-dollar frauds, war and genocide, prime ministers and presidents who didn’t know how to quit!!!! I was going crazy. I was one screwed up little bunny. I had become a tired, disillusioned, male-hating version of my former self.

I didn’t care anymore about continuing my research or pursuing a publication. The evidence was all there. I had a substantial sample size. I no longer studied the subjects with careful scrutiny, hoping with all might he would turn out to be one of the good ones, an outlier, an anomaly in the pool of numbers. The one that later might just stand to overturn my hypothesis and prove me wrong. Because each time I did, MAN 6HUY8-09 would turn around and leave his wife and kids. Or MAN 3UIO5-01 would say yes to testing the latest, and therefore by far the most unsafe, nuclear power plant … in the MIDDLE OF A 2000 YEAR OLD COMMUNITY OF HUMAN BEINGS!!

Michael Moore had said it, and now my life had confirmed it; all men are stupid. All hope was lost. There was no point in living life under the delusion that the opposite sex could ever do something right. Or more specifically could ever do something right for me.

Yes, for me…

I suddenly knew why it had all become too painful, too familiar. It had gotten personal. There I was fighting to find every specimen with that particular part of anatomy to show the world, well, to prove to myself really, that all men are bastards. Morons. Imbeciles. Idiots. You name it. Any endearing term you have heard after the expression “All men are…”

Because it was much easier this way. Why bother trying to find out what it was that was wrong with you, hence rendering you man-less, when all you had to do was find the fault in the other party. And heck, we’ve already covered the fact that this other party had a lot of them.

Sadly, in doing so, I overlooked many, many wonderful men. My friends, my friends’ partners, my own father and grandfathers for goodness sake. Husbands and mates of mine who did their thing, and worked tirelessly, often in the quiet background while a few notorious dickheads stole the limelight and dragged down the collective reputation of the male sex.

After this revelation, things thankfully took a quieter turn. I started noticing fathers in the playgrounds again, and the incredibly patient men in the waiting rooms holding the hands of that important woman in their life.

Man-hating is a disease ladies. Fortunately for me, my latest bout lasted only several months. And I say latest, because I’m sensible enough to realise that I may succumb to the illness every now and then. I have a couple of friends for whom I’m afraid the affliction is long-term. Blame age. Blame bad experience. My very close cousin, who might as well be my big sister, is married with two children. And you guessed it… a man-hater. Yes you can still be happily married and fall ill. She is not afraid to remind her husband that she will leave at anytime with the kids if he dares to cross the line. And she constantly berates the whole male species all in the name of imparting sisterly knowledge to me, bless her soul.

Oh and it’s contagious. My advice is to limit your contact with man-hating sufferers as much as possible. At least until their symptoms die down and surpass the infectious stage (usually identifiable with the absence of verbal diarrhoea). Lastly, wash your hands clean after every meeting, because the grime can stay on you for days.

And so after months of tiresome, if not slightly flawed, work, my research project came to a resounding halt. The only conclusion to be made was that the subject was on the other side of the microscope all along. With one more footnote to make: the editor of this journal article would like to acknowledge the existence of women who do awful things just as the men do. This is where women-haters come in, and that’s a whoooooole different story altogether…

x Ani